27 February 2008

Belated Birthday Wish

Happy Birthday to you.

You won't ever know how much I held you dear.

And never will I forget those times, never.

Happy Birthday.

21 February 2008

JAE Appeal Results

Look, look at this:



















I know you don't know what I know about what I get in yet you do want to know what I know yet you don't know.

Anyway, at first, I didn't know the result was today. I thought it was tomorrow. It was until just now when Sylvester asked me about some Poly stuffs then I was indirectly reminded of the JAE Appeal results thingy.

I got into something I don't really like nor do I really hate.

Good or bad?

Last Ray of Hope

19 February 2008

Failed

JAE's out and I'm sianed. I got into the 7th choice of my application, what the fuck?

It's like I'm not eligible for the whole damn 6 choices. What say you? All darn mother-fucking 6 choices were striked out?! I can't believe it! I thought I did well and alright, but I fucking did not.

Worst of all, I got into a JC?!

I might as well go jump down a builiding...twice!

But I wouldn't, cause there are some reasons that's halting my death, just a few and for the moment...

And I feel abandoned, nobody's there for me, not even the time to spare for an ear. Sometimes, I wonder what's the point of getting into a relationship when he's not there for me. What's the point of having your parents around when none is giving you any damn support. You couldn't imagine how it felt when you all said "You are weak." and "Sorry i cant rite now".

DeanFaye was right, we are all alone after all. There will be no one looking out for you when the time is wrong. Haha, great. The Devil needs none! But wait, I'm Devil no more? Yeah, I almost forgot the fact.

I'm now, just a hapless mortal, awaiting Fate, the wretched Executor of the Wheel.

Sorry buddy, your SKL needs to be delayed... again. Doesn't it seems freaky? Whenever I bought SKLs for you, there will always be some mother-fucking events scurrying their way into my path. Heavens' the least benevolent to spare alcohol and tobacco into the realm of Gaia.

Thought they ain't enough to ease my stupor and despair. Woohoo, three packs in a row! Hades would be able to impose Lung Cancer(not to forget Liver Cancer) on thyself as an excuse to cast my death if he ever thought of it!

I'm sorry that I failed you. I know that I have promised you to walk my path as yours on your behalf. It seems that I can't anymore. I had already broke the first promise I made to you, and the second don't seems to be turning out good. Why didn't you take me along with you at that time? You're lucky, at least nothing will ever touch you any further.

It's tenebrous being alone.